Saturday, February 19, 2005
lurving you forever and ever*
yAwN*...dAmN tIrEd....eArLy mOrNiNg wAkE uP aNd uSe cOmPuTeR...i pItY mYsElF..mY mInD oWaEs fUlL oF sAd tHiNgS...hApPy tHinGs cAnT sTaY lOnG iN mY mInD....aLl tHe fAuLtS...pRoBlEmS sTaRtEd fRm mE...i jUsT wIsHeD hE cOulD sMiLe tO me..bUt wOulD iT bE pOsSiBlE???i dOnT tHiNk sO....lIsTeiNg tO aVrIl lAvIgNe'S sOnGs...i dOnt wAnNa bE rEmInD oF tHe pAsT...i dOnT wAnT...bUt tHeN...tHe tHiNgS kEeP cOmInG tO my mInD...aNd pErHaPs hE dO tHoSe tHiNgS tO mAkE mE gIvE uP,wHo nOeS?bUt i jUsT dUnNo wHy....nOw tHaT hE's fAmOuS...vErY hArD tO tAlK tO him aS a fRiEnD...i rEalLy mIsS the fIrsT hIm when i kNeW hIm...lIkE mY fRiEnDs aLl sAe..hE aNd lAsT tImE hIm wAs a tWo dIfFeReNt pErSoN...lAst timE hE wAs nT fAmOuS...bUt hE hAd a rEalLy gOoD cHaRaCtEr...cAn tAlK tO fRiEnDs,sTrAnGeRs eAsIlY aNd nO tHoSe aCtIoN fAcE...bUt nOw...i cAn sAe hE bEcAmE dAo..pErHaPs hE dIdNt nOe...bUt...pEoPle aRoUnd hIm dO sEnSe tHaT hE hAs cHaNgEd aFtEr he bEcAmE fAmouS iN sChOoL....i jUsT hoPeD oNe day hE cAn gO bacK tO tHe nOrMaL...hIm...tO me..i rAtheR hE bE tHe fIrst pErSoN wHeN i kNeW hIm...rEalLy mIsS tHe uSeD tO bE gOoD *hIm*...tOmOrRoW oWaEs a nEw dAe..bUt tO Me..mY eveRydaY is tHe sAmE...cOmEs tO sChOoL aLoNe...aNd tO fEeL bEttEr...i wOuLd wAlK pAsT cEnTrAl pArK iN tHe mOrNiNg...thInKiNg oF tHe fIrSt time when i mEeT hIm...i wAs lAtE..aNd hE jUsT sIt aT tHe bAsKeTbAlL cOuRt wAiTing fOr mE..tHen wE wAlK tO sChOol,fEeLiNg sHy aNd EmBArAsSeD aLtHoUgH wE wErE oNlY jUsT frIeNds...gooD fRieNdS....mEmOrIeS fLoatiNg in My heaD aNd i wIsHeD tImE cOuLd rEpEaT aGaIn..tHeN mAyBe tHiNgS wOuLd tUrn oUt bEtTeR nOw....hAiZ...
i wont look back anymore. it just aint worth my time*