Friday, February 18, 2005
lurving you forever and ever*
I really dunno what to do...my maths test..all have to retest...then I and him got alot problems lei....haiz...volleyball..I feel like slacking....life....I feel like dying...Im really tired of all these and I wish to end it all by resting in peace...There are many things which I cant even put down at all..for months and years....I really dunno what to do..I have really good friends by my side and I knew they are very good to me..but Im still living miserably here right now and then..Im stuck..and I cant breathe....all I wanna do is to migrate to New Zealand and live there If I ever could...as the people who went for China trip..I am going China visiting my so call relatives there....so I didnt go to the China trip since Im going with my parents on June too....hope can take same plane there with the school too..hahakz....haiz...Im really confused...I dunno how to improve on my studies like sec one that time..but now Im slacking and slacking...I really wish he could understand me...I didnt sms him just for the sake of boredom or to disturb him..I sms people when Im sad...or real troubled..but perhaps he dint know what was hapeening recently to me..I really hope he could understand my problems now and dont add on to my problems..but help me too,like my friends...I know it's difficult..but I will bear with it...Im really happy even though I wanted his console and got back a scolding or whatever shit reply he give me.....as long as he replies me....I dont care how he reply...and I think my problems will be lessen abit....haiz....dunno what to do with my life right now...feeling very very stressed..and I really want to leave here and go to a faraway place where he's not there..and he wont be irritated by me...haiz...
i wont look back anymore. it just aint worth my time*