Monday, February 07, 2005
lurving you forever and ever*
dIsApPoInTeD
dIdNt sEe yOU iN sChOoL tOdAe i gUeSs...hAiZ...jUz kInDa fEeLiNg dOwN tOdAy....mAyBe i mUsT bElIeVe tHiS pRhAsE fRm tOdAe oNwArDs..eVeN uR mOsT tRuStEd fReN wOuLD bEtRaY yOu oNe dAy...lEt mE aSK yOu...hW wOuLd yOu fEeL wHeN yOuR mOsT tRuStEd fReN bEtRaYeD yOu....fEeL vErY uPsEt aND dEpReSsEd rIgHt?...welL...tHaTs wHaT hApPeNiNg tO mE nOw...hAiZ....tHaTs wHy iM dOwN sO dEpReSsEd jUsT rIgHt bEfOrE cHiNeSe nEw yEaR...hAiZ...eVeRyDaY oF mY lIfE wAs aLrEady sAd eNuFf...bUt gUeSs nOw...iM mOrE sAd...cOz hAvInG tO nOe tHe oNe i tRuStEd mOsT bEtRaYeD mE....hAiZ....:(...i rEaLlY dUnNo wHaT tO dO....i tRiEd nT tO bEtRaY aNyOnE...i aM wOrKiNg oN lIsTeN aNd fOrGeT..wHeRebY pEoPlE tElL mE thiNgS aBt oTheRS aNd i wOuLd nT tElL aNyoNe....aNd wIlL fOrGeT iT...aNd i sucCeEdEd...bUt...nOw pEople sAE mE...wHaT cAn i dO???iT rEaLlY bReAkS mY hEaRt....wHy fRiEnDsHiP iSh sOmEtImEs sO fAkE tHaT eVeN pPlE yOu tRUsTeD bEtRaYeD yOU....hAiZ....bUt iM sTiLl kInDa hApPiE eVeN tHoUgH tHiS hApPeNs tO mE...cOz...sEeInG hIm sMilInG mOrE aNd mOrE...iT mAkEs mE fOrGeT tHe sAd tHiNgS aNd cArRy oN mY lIfE...alThOuGh hE'S gOnE....lIkE wHaT sIjiE sAy tOdAe...bUt i gUeSs...iT dOesNt mAtTeR....aS lOnG aS hE'S hApPiE...iM hAPpY nO maTteR hW mY freNs tReAtEd mE....nO maTtEr hW sAd i feEl...i'Ll bE hAPpiE iF i sEe hIs sMiLe....
i wont look back anymore. it just aint worth my time*